Not sure what to put here

 So this is a random post that no one will understand but I have no one to talk to so I will post a little something here to try and make me feel better. I have been hurt in the past but I have got over it. I have thought something for the last few days something weird was going on and it turns out I am right. I am at a loss for words. I cant show my real emotions because I don't want my kids to know anything is going on. I want to scream, yell and cry, but I wont. I don't know why I am in shock, it is something that is to be expected but it still hurts all the same. I am not sure what will happen from here but I guess what will be will be.